For the life of me I can not force myself to do anything I know I need to. Despite having a million reasons to get on top of things I mentally cannot overcome this road block. I have tried everything to find a way to get started. . . But nothing works. Every night I tell myself that tomorrow will be the day. Then morning comes and there's some new obstacle standing there to greet me. Sometimes I blame myself for allowing things to stop me, but mostly I wonder why the forces of nature are against me. There MUST be a conspiracy working against me. I also secretly blame my devoted other half for loving me just the way I am so much so I feel like changing (even for the better) is superfluous.
I tell myself how much better I feel when I accomplish things and how many more opportunities will open up to me. I set everything up for myself the day before to make sure that nothing can derail me in the morning, but something generally happens in the middle of the night to change things then. And of course there are times when I just flat out ignore doing anything.
How do I get around this? I want to put everything behind me and begin focusing on what I know is best for me but I really don't know how.
Have you ever gotten into this type of rut? What was your motivation? What got you going? Is there any foolproof way of jump starting someone out of their funk?
I have tried these methods:
-making a list of reasons it's needed/helpful
-setting up rewards for milestones
-setting up back-ups to make sure weather isn't a hindrance
-hang up inspirational quotes everywhere
-setting up competition
-removing all things that could derail me
-having my own personal cheerleaders
-setting reminders on my cell phone
-seeking professional help
-taking a break to "reset" my inner clock
-energy supplements
Does anyone have this same issue of needing something. . . Anything. . . to motivate or inspire them? Has anyone done something else and found it worked?
I am thinking I might need a partner. Someone to hold me accountable until I am out of this rut. Someone who knows how stubborn I am and how to challenge me. I thrive on challenge!
Maybe that's the reason I am so unmotivated. I have no more challenge to my life. I have a set rhythm to my days, a pattern and schedule which keeps everything from going haywire. I have spots available for some extra things but generally those get filled by my children or some small catastrophe, which is always handled with ease.
Tomorrow I will break this cycle. Tomorrow I will take the plunge and no matter what happens, someone else will have to deal with it b/c I have to break out of this rut. I am going to be selfish and make the time for myself to get everything dealt with.
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